Blogging has been a massive part of my life for the past 4 and a half years now. It’s crazy how something that started with 16 year old me rambling on about lipsticks and my latest beauty purchases turned into something that has given me so many opportunities as well bringing so many lovely people into my life at the time I felt like I had nobody. I’m so surprised I’ve stuck to it for so many years, my blogs seen me go from the 16 year old punk rock wannabe to an almost 21 year old glitter loving makeup artist and everything in between. Whilst looking back at old posts is mega cringe it also shows me how much I’ve changed as a person and it makes me proud to see that journey.
Over the years whilst I’ve changed blogging has obviously changed too, it’s certainly a bigger community than ever before and there’s practically a blog for everything these days. Seeing how much it’s changed is both great and scary, it’s great to see so many people joining the community and sharing there voice online but it’s scary to see how massive the community really is, it seems like everyone and there pet cat has a blog these days. With new blogs popping up all the time means that the “competition” is tougher, it’s harder to think of a new concept because somebody else has probably already done it and it’s so easy to get caught up comparing yourself to others, something I’m incredibly guilty of.
By comparing myself to other blogs and constantly trying to put out content that followed the crowd rather than content I actually wanted to share meant blog posts from me really slacked, I didn’t feel connected to my blog anymore and I just didn’t have the passion I once had. Perfectly lit marble backgrounds became the norm, copper homeware that would only be used a photo prop became my obsession and a pile of books sat on my shelf that I never actually read, they just looked good in the background of pictures. I’ve got about 20 posts sat in my drafts that never got published because I always thought “will anybody actually read that?” or “I can’t publish that because the photos not perfectly lit and nobody wants to see that!!!”
I’ve decided I no longer want to feel that way, I don’t want to stress about my blog not looking like freakin online magazine, I don’t want to delete pictures because my swatches look a little messy. Whilst I love to read blogs that are all neat and tidy with marble backgrounds and Diptyque candles burning, that’s not me. The most I’ve ever spent on a candle is about £3.99 and the marble is sticky back plastic I got in Wilko’s. I’m not in anyway throwing shade or hating on blogs that are like that, because I wish I did have the passion to take photos like that and lets be real I spend a good portion of my evening reading these glossy blogs wondering why my house doesn’t look Pinterest worthy.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m obviously still going to use my marble back drop for product photos and that copper homeware isn’t going to waste, I’m just going to stop stressing about the content I share. I’m going to stop comparing myself to other bloggers. If I think of a post I’m going to share it without stressing if it’ll get any comments. Normal posts will of course resume just as they did before, in fact there will actually be more so there won’t be much of a difference to the reader, but for me I think I’ll find my blogging spark again without worrying if I’m good enough 24/7.
The biggest change I wanted to introduce is makeup looks to my blog. If you follow me on Instagram I’m sure you’ve seen me post endless amounts of makeup looks that I create, and whilst I love sharing them on Instagram I don’t feel like I’m connecting with followers through a few lines in the description. I’m going to start sharing the looks on my blog as well as Instagram so I can write up a proper post about the look and the products I used, and share any tips and tricks that may have helped me create it. As well as that, another massive change is that I’m going to finally start filming my eye makeup looks *gasp*. It’s something I’ve wanted to do for ages, and I’ve had a lot of requests on Instagram to make tutorials so it’s time I brave it. I ordered a ring light which arrived a couple of days ago so chasing natural lighting won’t be an issue anymore.
Writing up this post I feel so relieved, this marks the end of my worry and honestly all I want to do is sit and write about makeup and paint my face with all sorts of colours. I already feel like my spark is coming back, I have so many ideas floating round my head that I want to share with you guys. No more stressing over if my posts going to be popular and following the latest trend, just more makeup talk and makeup looks, sharing my life rambles with the world, just more me. Less magazine. SColvinBeauty is ready for a change, let’s do this.